Monday, August 17, 2009

Sorry, but I can't write anymore...My heart is broken...

I haven't been blogging at all for a while now and I'm not sure when I'll start up again. I can't seem to write. I don't have a feeling in my soul to convey, not a word to toss around, nor a story to concoct. My heart holds all these things and more...but my heart is broken...

Last month I witnessed a horrible tragedy...one that I still cannot will myself to write about. Truth be told, I'm still in denial. Still hoping he'll be ok. That the doctors were wrong when they said that he was gone...

We're all trying to justify getting out of bed in the morning and living our lives to the fullest. But sometimes it's so hard to get past the why? and how? that even trying to remember how to boil water doesn't come easily...

Andrew Dowley, a little boy that we cherished, a sweet little friend to my own children, the 2 year old son of our dear friends, past away suddenly, unexpectedly. So far, the reasoning? Unknown...

So now, we just take it day by day...trying to live life...yet stuck on the why and how...
In loving memory...Andrew Dowley...